Letting go of the Uncontrollable

I have the privilege of being able to ride my bike to work every single day. Mostly rain or shine. But I prefer being driven when it’s quite rainy. (Back story: I’m not legally allowed to drive in Germany with my Minnesota, USA, license. If I want to, I just need to take the written test.) 

However, I’m still having issues keeping my blood sugar in check on my way home. I discussed this issue in a previous post where I would go low (doc told me to suspend and eat, which is what I’m doing). Phenomenally, I don’t have an issue in the morning; my blood sugar stays stable. If I were to take a stab at why – I think it’s because of recent active insulin from my lunch that impacts my ride home. I mostly eat at 12:30 each day, and leave work around 4.

Here’s a quick break down. Mornings I can leave my pump on normal, no basal rate changes. Afternoon bike ride, I have to suspend my pump, and consume 15-25g of silly carbs that I don’t want to consume. Sometimes I go low, sometimes I’m high as a kite after. It’s never the same either, which is hard to treat.

I just don’t understand how it works, or how I can prepare for whatever will happen. How can I start at 111 mg/dl one day, and end at 205 mg/dl, while today I started at 156 mg/dl and ended at 128 mg/dl???? I eat one granola bar each day and suspend my pump. How can it be so variable?

I cannot predict what will happen, and that frightens me. But I also need to learn to let go and not get so frustrated by something that is seemingly out of my control. I just hate ruining perfect blood sugar days with a high mixed in there. That’s the defeating part.

Any advice??

p.s. I use the app MySugr for logging all my meals, blood sugars, and activities.